I have not been talking about the school lately because I quit. I quit right before our annual leave in March. Many of you may not understand my tactics but it was the only way to get the people here to listen. The buildings where looking better and more functional and we had full classrooms but none of that mattered if we are not using the school as a spiritual outreach to the children.
On my resignation letter I gave 4 points as to why I was quitting. The reasons were as follows.
1. Lack of spirituality in the school
2. Problems with the administration
3. Corruption in the school
4. Lack of adventist teachers
Next, I gave the solution to each point. They had several meetings over this and they accepted all of my stipulations on coming back except one. One thing they felt like they could not vote on and that was getting rid of the very corrupt principal. I let them know that I would not come back and work with the school until we had a good, trust worthy and spiritual leader. There was no getting around it but oh they did try. I stuck to it though with God on my side. I spoke boldly in the board meetings and uncovered the paper trail of lost money and unvalidated receipts. I was the treasurer last year which really revealed a lot. I praise God for allowing me to see these things and for giving me the strength, as a woman, to go forth and not be afraid to say the truth before the board. I have to admit though that right when I was called into a meeting a got very nervous and I called Jamie and Dr. Bland to pray with me to give me God's strength. I know I was not alone.
No one wanted to take that responsibility of firing a man that was clearly stealing not even the pastor. But I guess it is culture. Everything is about relationships. I continued to be persistent that a decision needed to be made. I called Dr. James Appel to come help me. He was very understanding and four days later he had Gary Roberts fly him in for the meeting along with the Director of Education from Ndjamena and the pastor came as well. Four hours later the decision was made and the principal was replaced and all points accepted. This was six months later, 3 while I was in the states on leave and then the last three being active trying to get heard.
Wow! So now I am on fire! I am so excited because now I see that the doors are open to really make a difference in the lives of the children. But I can't do all this alone. Again, I need your help. I am going to need money again. I am moving forward in faith and I am going to build the next building. I want to complete this school and give these kids the opportunity to have a christian education all the way through high school. I have some money already that some people have given in the past but I know it is not going to be enough. Right now our school only goes up to 10th grade then the kids have to join the other children in the market school with drunk teachers along with a lot of other corrupt things they do. I believe that this is a very influential age and they would be so much better to stay in the better environment that is going to focus them on a better future. Please consider joining me on this endeavor. Please consider this to be something that your sabbath school class or church or whatever group to take on as a real mission to help reach the lives of young people. Along the way I am also going to be asking for help with getting some books for the kids because right now they have nothing. There is so much to do. But I am willing to do all the foot work and the communication and give you all the pictures you need. I will do anything and everything if you will join with me. Let me know your questions.
Thank you for your support through all these different journeys that this place has given us. You all have helped me in so many ways especially here lately. Thank you for the prayers, I know that they have made the difference. I can see the light and the mission for the people in this place again, hallelujah!
Thank you to all of you who have been praying for us these last couple of weeks. Thank you for all of the encouraging letters. It was over whelming to have so many letters come flooding in. I am so grateful to God for putting so many wonderful people in our lives and for giving us such a great support system. Thank you all so much for loving us and our mission.
Just now as I am trying to get my thoughts in this letter the tears are flowing down my face. Not because I am sad but because I am in awe of the love that God has for us. Because I know that He has answered all of our prayers. He has lifted my darkness. He has given me a clear mind with a real mission. I have seen God's love coming through to us from each one of you and your letters. (except one, there is always that one!) But all of your letters were exactly what I needed. Now I say "I needed" but Jamie was feeling this way too but he just leaves the writing to me. I was so down in the dumps. I have never felt so bad since we have been here and I am so glad that I wrote that letter to all of you. Some said that it was bad for me to write such negative things but I have no regrets. I believe that God wants us to lean on each other. I also believe that when you are working everyday on the front lines in another country with such a different culture as a missionary that we need encouragement we need those extra prayers. It is not easy here. But I can honestly say that God took away all those awful feelings. I can honestly say that I am loving life again, even being in Chad. It didn't happen over night but God worked with me everyday and I believe that I am happier now than I have been in a long, long time.
God not only had all of our friends and family write us but random people from around the world, like Australia. People who we do not know that found our blog and wrote us saying that they are praying for us. What a wonderful, wonderful God we serve! He is so much bigger than we give Him credit for.
We are also going to be giving bible studies out of our home with some of the young adults we are close to here. It just kind of happened. I am actually very excited about it. I can't wait to share what I know and learn on top of that. This is really not something that I thought I would be doing but God knows what we are capable of. I am just trying to be willing to do what He wants me to do.
I have a pretty big story to tell about the school but I am not quite ready to tell all yet. I will know more after this week. Before this week is over I will have all the answers in order to be able to share my story. I can say though that I need everyones prayers, again. I am making a really big move against what is going on at the school and I need prayers that when the mission president comes here this week to make a vote on it that things will swing God's way. That God will be in control of His school and He will use me to change things that need to be changed but also that He will give me the right spirit, the right words and the strength at this big meeting.
This week I will also be following Jamie around. I will get some pictures and some stories of what he is doing. He has been very busy.
We want you to know that we love all of you and I can't thank you enough for being there for us during our dark days.